Wilderness of Soul

Wilderness of Soul…

I distinctly remember as a new believer, the first time that I felt as if God had left me. There I was, navigating an emotional valley, seemingly on my own. It was a weighty declaration as I recall, to tell a fellow believer that you were going through a “wilderness season.” Though a bit more mature today, after being a Christ follower for over four decades, I am still completely undone by wilderness of soul – the desert encounters.

In the natural realm, deserts are a part of the ecosystem known as “drylands.” The primary characteristic is a lack of water. Drylands cover forty percent of the world’s land surface and contain thirty percent of the world’s population. Cultivating crops and life resources is doable, but more difficult. Onward to our spiritual application.

A Chilling Reminder…

The experiences of Israel in the wilderness are clearly formulated into a divine exhortation. They are nearly chilling reminders.  “They all ate the same spiritual food and drank the same spiritual drink; for they drank from the spiritual rock that accompanied them, and that rock was Christ. Nevertheless, God was not pleased with most of them; their bodies were scattered in the wilderness.” 1 Cor.10:3-4 When God gives a clear warning or an example for us to note, wisdom says I need to pay attention.

Before you say, “This will never happen on my watch”, consider this: “So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!” 1 Cor. 10:12 Thankfully, the next verse offers hope: “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” 1 Cor. 10:13 You mean that Israel had a way out of the wilderness other than the fate they experienced? Precisely.

They made wrong lifestyle choices, clearly put forth in the passage: idolatry, sexual immorality, testing Christ, grumbling. 1 Cor. 10:7-10 These remain killer choices today. Perhaps you are personally aware of some in the present day, whose faith did not endure in the wilderness. They may have deemed God unfair and no longer worthy of being followed, investing instead in what seemed to be more palatable options.

God’s Training Center…

Standing up under temptation is the first ministry process that Jesus went through. The wilderness is God’s weight room, his training center, to develop us. Human logic would dictate that following his baptism and a public proclamation that the Father was pleased with him, a ministry launch would be in order. It actually was a ministry launch, just not the kind we might desire. The top man from each team needed to face off. This set the tone for all who would follow. If Jesus was led there, might not Holy Spirit lead each of us into wilderness testing as well? Going “from glory to glory” is indeed our destiny, but we must not mistake that to simply mean “from one high point to another.”

No Props…

I have found that the turbulence of the wilderness is not only sourced from around me but from within me. The circumstances are a real contributor, no question, but it’s my inner response that reveals the real issue. Anxiety and insecurity for example, may exist in my soul but I can compensate by comforting myself in other ways. The wilderness however, offers me no props. When God takes away your water and says, “The only place to satiate your thirst is in me”, you must find a way to believe that the wilderness is not void of God. Wilderness interludes are an integral, balancing component, under-girding us more than we know.

A Tranquil Shelter…

“My heart is in anguish within me, and the terrors of death have fallen upon me. Fear and trembling have come upon me; horror has overwhelmed me. And I say, Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest. I would wander far away, I would lodge in the [peace of the] wilderness. Selah. I would hurry to my refuge [my tranquil shelter far away] from the stormy wind and from the tempest.” Ps. 55:4-8 (AMP) My creation of this tranquil wilderness shelter would be a quiet mountain cabin with a great view, running water, and a strong internet connection. Yes, let’s get away into the wilderness! God’s version is akin to stretching me to the max, causing me lean into him, breaking new ground for my faith, and planting my roots deeper into his heart – creature comforts as we know them not on the top of his list.

Through personal experience and observation, I find two broad categories by which to understand the wilderness. A “directed wilderness” is a desert season through which I am learning God’s ways. I am embracing the opportunities for growth that God puts before me. On the other hand, a “wandering wilderness” is a desert season in which I am resisting the leading of the Lord, and mostly camping out in grumbling and discontentment. Jesus was directed into the wilderness and did not wander while there. This is my desire, to be like Christ.

Wilderness Thriving…

The wilderness is not a “one and done” proposition. God will lovingly guide us, patiently overseeing our stumbling, always giving us a chance to try again. The drylands then, are a place of thirst – a resource that we must learn how to mine and harness. Author Sara Hagerty describes it well: The degree to which I allow weakness to become thirst for more of God, and the degree to which I allow myself to lean into that thirst rather than run from it, is the degree to which I am becoming my best self…Our thirst is how God allures us. The thirsty don’t just find God, they thrive in God. *

“Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will respond as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt.” Hos. 2:14-15

There has never been a time, when I’ve ardently partnered with God in the wilderness, that he hasn’t been faithful to: speak tenderly, release a greater fruitfulness (vineyards), a more hopeful outlook, and a renewal of my first love heart response. I like prayers that hit the bulls-eye, prayers that I know stand a good chance of getting results. Here’s one of my faves: God, increase my thirst for you. Do whatever it takes to increase my yearning for you. Refresh my vision and enlarge my desire to please your heart.

When I sprinkle a little fasting onto this prayer, I often find myself in a state of wonderful deprivation, the chamber of my soul fueled to seek the face of God.


* Sara Hagerty, Unseen: The Gift of Being Hidden in a World That Loves to be Noticed  (Grand Rapids, Zondervan, 2017)